Monday, April 06, 2009

I think it's time... to say farewell

One of my favorite books is The Alchemist. And its about following your dreams instead of just doing something that you think is right.

I admire people who keep their dreams alive.

And I've been doing some introspection - and realize that I am not really sure what my dream is... or whether I've ever allowed myself to have a dream. Idecided to forego going away to college so I could save money and not get out with a ton of student loans... I decided to live at home for a while after I graduated... I took a job transfer even though I didn't really like the job.

Yet there are some things I realize I may be good at... I love kids, and I like that I can encourage them to read, to be polite, and still have fun. I like having silly handshakes with kids.

And I also thought about my blog, and I realize I started my blog because I was encouraged by another blogger who I left comments for. Lately, I haven't wanted to blog, I haven't had any idea what to blog about. Yet, I still like to read other blogs, to comment, to give advice.

I think I'm good at listening, I think I'm good at offering advice... and I don't get upset if my advice is not accepted or understood or whatever.

I also have given a lot of thought to why I blog anonymously, and why I have this alter ego - hidden from family, friends and co-workers... yet, I also have been lucky to meet some great people through this blog - some only via email, some in person. Still, I also realize that I have established fences around myself an my life - and have been wondering of late if that's fair to those I consider friends, and if its fair to me...

What I have arrived at is a deicsion of sorts... I think that this rambling blog post will probably be my last. What started in November 2005, and lasted through 668 posts, has run its course... I think its time to move on from blogging. I'll probably be making other changes as time moves on, but I will continue to read blogs and comment...

farewell.

8 comments:

Princessa lil mexico said...

you will be missed!!

derek

S said...

I don't need another person to leave me.

mike said...

hopefully, you'll change your mind and merely say "farewell for now". i shall miss reading your news and views, mon ami

Billy said...

Awww. I am glad this was a launching point for our friendship!

Jules said...

Oh C-Baby...

Well, I knew you had done a bunch of cleaning of sorts in the internet world... but I actually didn't expect you to give up your blog. As I was reading this, I was thinking that you were going to say you were going to go back to school and get a sociology degree or become a Big Brother or something. I didn't expect you to say farewell... and when I read that word my whole body stopped for a few seconds. All of it stopped. My heart's very sad, and I almost feel like I'm in panic mode!! I'm not joking.

Just... you'd better promise me that you will stay in touch with me. You've become an important person to me, whether we've managed to stay in touch constantly or not!

Loads of love...
xoxoxox

about a boy said...

i already miss yoiu.

Soul Seared Dreamer said...

It sucks to come back to find so many blogs no longer being updated.

I guess we have other ways of staying in touch so I'll get over it - but you will be missed now that I'm sorta back

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